Theres definately more!!!!

today i started reading revolution in world missions..Ive only read 2 chapters but i can already tell you that its amazing!!!!!So far ive read stories about missionaries and then going out to the unchurched villages and towns in asia....Ive always had a love for travel but the more i read, the more the passion i had for missions grew. One of my dreams is to travel everywhere and preach and play worships songs and songs that ive written. but the one thing that i think is different about it is that i want to go to the unchurched masses. I want to go to the smallest tribes in africa and the little villages in asia and the coldest town is antartica.and thats when it hit me.....being a christian isnt just reading youre bible and spending your alone time with the Father, thats an essential. and up until now thats what my christian walk has been about. but then i realized THERES MORE!!!!!Of course we need to rekindle the fire in christians today but we need to get the word of God to the people that have never heard it. And I want to be one of those people. If we dont get to the unreached, who will. The thing thats so crazy to me is that there are people out there who have never even heard of God. They will live for nothing and die for nothing. I cant let that happen.Our purpose as christians is to get the gospel heard. If we are just sitting around we arent doing our job. You and I need to realize that there are people so alone and so empty that are searching for more, and maybe you are the one to help them. Maybe I'm the one to help. Who knows.....

More than ever i need my jesus

Today it hit me.
i have been so unhappy the past few days and i did not understand really why.
But then like a ton of bricks it all fell right on top of me. Ive been separated from the presence of God. I separated myself from it. There were times when i ignored it, didnt see it and even flat out refused it.Why did i do that? I have no clue.
Ive been living in sin and giving into the lies and temptation on the enemy. I havent spent time with Jesus in weeks. Im starting to get into fights with my parents again. and the thing that made me realize that i needed to change is because i could feel myself putting up that wall. The wall that separated me from everyone that wanted to help. The wall that shut everything and everyone good out. Most of all God. That wall was torn down a few months ago but i felt it starting to be built back up. And that freaked me out. So i called my amazing prayer warrior of a friend Kaeli and told her what was up. She prayed for me and reassured me that everything would be ok. "just press into God." thats what she said. But sometimes life seems so much more appealing to me. Going out with friends, watching tv, doing stuff on the computer. life is so distracting sometimes.
So now im here,having to rebuild alot of things in my life. Addicted to things that i have to get rid of. Some more serious than others,
I remember back a few months ago, i was so close to jesus and could sense the presence of God all around me. I remember thinking to myself how could i have lived without this for so long. I finally found what i should have been living for all my life. but then i lost it. it was nobodys faul but my own. I did it, and i admit to it. And im willing to do anything i have to do to get back there.
I need him more than anything.
Take me back to the place where i first met you.